I've been told twice lately by the two people who know me best in this world (husband and mama) that I need to figure out what I want. OUCH. Thanks for that, guys. But, I really do. See...I have this problem. I have the WANTS really, really bad. But, I also have the "I don't want to work too much" syndrome...and the two just don't really coincide. What to do?
As I have stated previously, I want to work, and will always work. Sure, I'd love to work a few less hours a week...but by many standards, I have a pretty good set up now. BUT, I dream of working even less. Like 30 hours per week would be AMAZING. AMAZING. However, that doesn't really jive with my desire to make lots of money and be a bad as* in my career. Hmmmph. Life is so unfair. (kidding, sort of) But, seriously....how can I do both? Or what gives? I have big plans/dreams of building, living on the lake one day, having a boat, etc. (I can't help it, this is how I grew up and I want this for my kids)....but I also have big plans of being able to spend a little more time with my girl. Ultimately, I know right now in my life...I am not willing to work MORE hours per week than I already do. And I don't think I will be able to find anything (or at my current position) making MORE money working less. So, see there? I'm stuck. I feel like I can't move forward in my career because I am unwilling to put in more hours right now...and I also feel like I need to (and want to) be with my daughter a bit more.
I know in the grand scale of things, we are YOUNG and in 5-7 years things could be drastically different...but it is so hard for me not to WANT more now. I try so hard to be thankful for all that I have (and I am)...but that doesn't mean I can't also strive to have more. Does that make me sound ridiculously materialistic? I guess I just need to figure out what is more important to me now and what I want for my family. It's hard though, y'all.
okay, no more time today...last work day before the BAHAMAS!
xoxo
As I have stated previously, I want to work, and will always work. Sure, I'd love to work a few less hours a week...but by many standards, I have a pretty good set up now. BUT, I dream of working even less. Like 30 hours per week would be AMAZING. AMAZING. However, that doesn't really jive with my desire to make lots of money and be a bad as* in my career. Hmmmph. Life is so unfair. (kidding, sort of) But, seriously....how can I do both? Or what gives? I have big plans/dreams of building, living on the lake one day, having a boat, etc. (I can't help it, this is how I grew up and I want this for my kids)....but I also have big plans of being able to spend a little more time with my girl. Ultimately, I know right now in my life...I am not willing to work MORE hours per week than I already do. And I don't think I will be able to find anything (or at my current position) making MORE money working less. So, see there? I'm stuck. I feel like I can't move forward in my career because I am unwilling to put in more hours right now...and I also feel like I need to (and want to) be with my daughter a bit more.
I know in the grand scale of things, we are YOUNG and in 5-7 years things could be drastically different...but it is so hard for me not to WANT more now. I try so hard to be thankful for all that I have (and I am)...but that doesn't mean I can't also strive to have more. Does that make me sound ridiculously materialistic? I guess I just need to figure out what is more important to me now and what I want for my family. It's hard though, y'all.
okay, no more time today...last work day before the BAHAMAS!
xoxo
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